Weekend Recharge

Hello friends, I'm sitting here on a Sunday afternoon wishing I had something more poignant to tell you. But here I am today, feeling kind of blah to be honest. I worked at my nurse job this morning, which was fine, and on my drive home I felt like I had my whole day ahead of me and I was going to be productive. Well, I'm showing you the most productive part of my day right now (lol). I came home and immediately took a 2-hour nap, which I didn't plan on doing, but it felt so good.

I woke up on my own, and with the help of one of my cats trying to sit on my head. I immediately felt guilty for sleeping and felt like I was late for something, which is a horrible feeling for me. I took some deep breaths and reminded myself I didn't have anywhere to be, and that the sleep felt good and I must have needed it. My iced coffee that I didn't drink was still waiting for me with a nice pool of sweat around it. The house was peaceful and I, in fact, did not miss anything, nor was I late for anything.

I hate waking up with the feeling of wasting my time or the thought of "I could have been more productive with my time". The truth is, I am so hard on myself, and I am working on turning the volume down on my self-critical thoughts. I love naps and I don't want my body to have to justify to my mind every time I feel tired that taking a little snooze is OK. And you know what, I found a little compromise for those self-critical thoughts. I got myself together, folded some laundry, took the dog out, fed my sourdough starter, and started writing my thoughts to all of you.

I've found ways to do things and make them more enjoyable. I never want this personal creative project of mine to feel like an assignment. So, I turned on Taylor Swift's calming Evermore album, light a really good smelling candle, refreshed my iced coffee, got some water, and got to work. And here I am, enjoying this cathartic experience and being productive at the same time. Let this be a reminder to myself and to anyone reading, that it's healthy and OK to give into rest. When I was a labor and delivery nurse, I would tell my patients as they were pushing that the rest was just as important (if not more important) than the pushing phase, because it was here that they could recenter themselves and let their bodies recover. I really wish I was better at taking my own advice, but here's to getting better every day.

Have a beautiful week and embrace all the things that this new week brings. Thank you so much for being here with me.

Bridget